Friday, May 11, 2018 1

the engagement and wedding preparation (April 29th, 2018)

By Venty Indah Utami

Hello, world!

It has been a long time since the last time I wrote in this blog. Pretty long, actually. There are lot of good things occurred to me lately, but the most highlighted one is I just got engaged! Haha. Honestly I couldn't even think of myself getting this serious with a person, yet God knows best and He brings us this way.

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Saturday, September 23, 2017 0 By Venty Indah Utami

when we have something for so long we may lose value over it.



Monday, August 21, 2017 0

my two cents.

By Venty Indah Utami

This is just my two cents, my personal perspectives and opinion (everybody is entitled to speak, aight?)

Saya paham bahwa masyarakat Indonesia memiliki nasionalisme yang besar. Masyarakat Indonesia sangat cinta dan bangga kepada Indonesia, and I am greatly sure there are lots and lots of them who are willing to die for Indonesia.

Saya pun bangga kepada nasionalisme yang dimiliki oleh masyarakat Indonesia. Pun saya bangga dengan Indonesia. Why should I not? I was born and raised in Indonesia. I am truly and 100% Indonesian. But somehow, since the era of internet is growing rapidly nowadays, I feel like there are times when we lost our identity as a friendly and welcomed nation.

Since a very long time ago, we are widely known as one of the civilized nations. As a welcomed country to those tourists who come and mesmerized to the beauty of Indonesia; as a mother nation to all the citizens of Indonesia; and even as the Asian tiger to the neighboring countries. Kita sangat terkenal dengan penduduk yang ramah, dan bangsanya yang gemah ripah loh jinawi tata tentrem kerto raharjo. Masyarakat yang siap membantu satu sama lain, dengan sikap gotong royong dan tenggang rasa. Bangsa yang kuat, tidak mudah terpecah belah.


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Wednesday, June 28, 2017 1

Allah always knows.

By Venty Indah Utami



► ♫ Banda Neira - Sampai Jadi Debu (in the background)


Akhir-akhir ini, whenever I feel a little bit uneasy, I will repel those words for times in my head. 
"He knows what's in every heart".
He knows. He always knows.
Sedikit demi sedikit, kata-kata tersebut mendamaikanku. 

Karena aku tau, apa pun yang aku rasakan, sebenarnya aku tidak merasakannya sendiri. Ia pun tau. 
Ia pun paham.

Karena aku pun jadi tau, apa pun yang orang lain rasakan dan sembunyikan, ia tidak menyembunyikannya sendirian. Allah pun tau.
Allah selalu tau.
Jadi, tidak akan ada kebohongan yang akan terus menjadi kebohongan.
Tidak akan ada keburukan yang akan bisa terus ditutupi.


Allah knows.
Allah always knows.
Allah always knows best.


And it is enough.

Saturday, January 14, 2017 0

24 and blessed.

By Venty Indah Utami

Jan 15, 2017

10.15


Hey, self. Happy birthday!
Turning 24 seems awesome right? (yeah, it is the only way to console myself since I am being grumpy for getting older)
Time does pass in the blink of an eye. It feels only yesterday when you celebrated your 23rd birthday, and even a year had gone by since it. Your 23rd year is awesome, but I hope you 24th would be as awesome as (if not more awesome) it.
As you are getting older, the role that you would be playing would be bigger. And bigger. And bigger. But never been smaller.
Happy getting more responsibilities, duties, and hopes! Today is the youngest you'll ever be again and the oldest you have ever been.
Enjoy your 24, and see you next year ;)



Best regards,
Yourself :)

Wednesday, January 4, 2017 0

2017: resolution

By Venty Indah Utami

It's pretty hard to admit, that actually I was born with a very great sense of competitiveness. I am hardly feeling satisfied with everything I have achieved or accomplished. Whenever I achieve something, I will automatically see other people with a better accomplishment, and suddenly I will feel small. Then I will try again. Then I would envy other people's result. And then again. Again. Again. The never ending vicious circle.




When I graduated with a cum laude degree, I envy people with a summa cum laude degree.
When I graduated in June, I envy people who graduated in April.
When I (almost) succeeded my master degree with a cum laude degree, I envy people with a better degree and better experiences.
When I could study in one of the best universities in Indonesia, I envy people that could have an opportunity to study abroad.
And so.
And so.
And so.

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Sunday, January 1, 2017 0

welcome 2017!

By Venty Indah Utami

Hey! My first entry in 2017. Been a long a time since the last time I wrote, no particular reason but recently I am not really into writing.

Time really does pass by so fast, doesn't it? Seems like things gone only in the blink of an eye.
Seems like it was only yesterday when the things were on wreak havoc welcoming 2016, and now, wuz! Suddenly it's 2017.
Fascinating, isn't it?


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Tuesday, October 25, 2016 0

find my reasons

By Venty Indah Utami

Hey. Long time no write.



Life has been challenging me lately, (well, when it not be?) because currently I am undergoing some ups and downs in life.
This is why life is funny. Life always has way to give its people smiles and tears. No smile without tears. And vice versa.


Early in the month, I make an accomplishment to myself. Not to anyone, because it is only between me and myself, making a deadline in life to finish my proposal in September.
I did my thesis seminar proposal in October 6, the second first (hm?) in my year. It means I am only two chapters away from ending my hell (read: thesis).
Such a great start of a month rite?

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Thursday, August 18, 2016 0 By Venty Indah Utami

18.

Being in love with you since almost two years ago is one of the best decision I have ever made, and I thank God everyday for it.


Can't wait to see you again.

Thursday, August 11, 2016 0

loving is dealing.

By Venty Indah Utami

Loving someone does not require anything --because when you fall in love, you just fall. When you fall, you cannot pick where you fall.
You. Just. Fall.
You cannot pick where you would land. With whom. In what kind of ground.
There is a reason why it is called 'fall in love'.


Being in love does not take much.
It only takes a courage, and a confidence that you are ready.

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Wednesday, August 3, 2016 0

a weekend to remember

By Venty Indah Utami

Hei readers!

I wish you all a nice weekend. I know, it has already been Tuesday (and even in hours it would be Wednesday) and weekend had been two days away. But a great weekend makes me unable to move on.


The thing is, last weekend I went to Surabaya because one of my best friends was getting married. She getting married is one big thing, but me being gathered with my 10 other halves is another big thing. The case is, my 9 crazy friends and I had been separated for soooooo long because we live in different cities. It needs a magical event like this to gather us all! And it could be guessed that indeed, last week we all have the best time of our lives ;)


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Sunday, July 10, 2016 0

open clothes

By Venty Indah Utami

Yesterday, when I had a gathering with some of my friends, we discussed over an issue which brought us to such a great debate.

About men, women, and rape.
They pinpointed the woman in a sexy clothes as the reason of why a rape is occured.
And guess what?
I am getting really angry because of that.


Call me a feminist.
But yes, I would be very glad to be led into such a discussion with those who called women in the open clothes as an excuse to rape someone.

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(almost) quarter life crisis

By Venty Indah Utami

Tonite, I am gonna write a serious post. Perhaps this post would just be a revelation for those who thought the same too.
I am just having a quarter life crisis.

Well, practically I am not twenty-five yet, but because lots of my friends already got there, it makes me think like one.


In these ages, when you are 20-s, you will be in the middle of a new crisis. Because all you face is a new problem. The problem is not simply what you would have for lunch. Not as simple as what would you do after school hours. Not a curfew. Not a homework.


But your future.




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Thursday, July 7, 2016 0

Eid-l Fitr 1437H

By Venty Indah Utami

Hey, readers. Eid Mubarak!

Actually when I write this, it has already been the second day of Syawal. Yet, the euphoria of Moslem's glorious day is still obviously felt.
The time always passes by when we are having a good time, and it elaborates why Ramadhan has gone only in a blink of an eye.

 Yesterday, as always I had a 'halal bihalal' with all of my families.
If you are curious with what halal bihalal is, it is a moment where your precious ones (could be families, friends, or lovers) gather in one place (usually this habit is only happened in Moslem's special days such as Eid-l Fitri and Eid-l Adha), and celebrate Eid with laughter and good food (and in this occasion the special food will be 'opor ayam').

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Monday, July 4, 2016 0

mellow

By Venty Indah Utami

I know that I am probably quite mellow these days, but I need to be honest about something.

I miss a feeling; a feeling of achievement.
You know, the feeling when you feel very proud of yourself when you successfully earn something. 
I feel these days, I am only doing nothing. I live my life ordinarily, and I feel I waste too much time.
When anyone else gives their best efforts, I am only sitting here watching them pursue their way to the top.

Okay, I know that this would sound really worse, but I feel envy.
I see everyone else is doing okay on their own. They are achieving something. They have something to be proud of.
And I am here, feeling unsatisfied with myself.

Perhaps I am really full of myself, but I feel I am not good enough with what I have right now.
I shall do better.
This is what I told myself everyday.

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Tuesday, May 24, 2016 0

home

By Venty Indah Utami



She knew she loved him when 'home' went from being a place to being a person.

Saturday, May 21, 2016 0 By Venty Indah Utami

"you are my home.
and I'll make sure to keep coming home."

Thursday, May 19, 2016 0

it's okay to be ashamed.

By Venty Indah Utami

Earlier, I had blogwalkings to some of my favourite bloggers (and friends). I see all the contents they had been writing, and all what happened to me is........




ASHAMED.


(yes, I should use all the caps and the bigger fonts.)



Like seriously, I feel so ashamed to compare the contents of my blog with theirs. They wrote all the beautiful things, all the things that could be an inspiration to everyone.
Meanwhile, I am still stuck here with all the negativities (since I used to write sometimes when I feel down or angry --pardon me) or random thoughts (that could be useless sometimes [or every time?]).
I feel really childish if I shall put myself beside them.

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Tuesday, May 10, 2016 0

the ugly truth.

By Venty Indah Utami

When you are getting older, your circle will be getting smaller. You will find those people you would be proud to call 'best friends', and those who you would be satisfied only with 'acquaintance'. And you'll be fine with that, because you eventually understand that you do not need everyone to be your friend.


I am not trying to be ironic nor pessimistic, but the fact it really is.

When I was in school, I always found myself love to be surrounded with lots of people. I believe that having a lot of friends is a sign that you successfully earn a good point in socializing with people.

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growing stronger

By Venty Indah Utami

This week has been tough.

I had such a long week. A great ones, as always. But a tougher ones, this time.

I never imagine to be in this kind of situation. That was awful.
For both of us.
We underwent such a bad circumstance. And through the downhill.
Like that was the lowest point of our relationship so far.


Yet, there is always a good thing in those all bad things.

Life is fair --it's unfair to everyone.

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