Hey. Long time no write.
Life has been challenging me lately, (well, when it not be?) because currently I am undergoing some ups and downs in life.
This is why life is funny. Life always has way to give its people smiles and tears. No smile without tears. And vice versa.
Early in the month, I make an accomplishment to myself. Not to anyone, because it is only between me and myself, making a deadline in life to finish my proposal in September.
I did my thesis seminar proposal in October 6, the second first (hm?) in my year. It means I am only two chapters away from ending my hell (read: thesis).
Such a great start of a month rite?
But then, in the same day I heard that my grandfather died.
My family never told me the truth (because they are afraid that it would break my focus at that time), until I found out from the recent updates in BBM.
Well yea, a moment of truth.
Funny, but ironic in the same way.
The rest was quite pleasant because I could enjoy my spare time with my beloved ones.
I enjoy most of time with my boyfriend, my family, my friends, going out of the cities; everything was beyond great.
But then life hits me hard again, because I found myself failed some plans (the most important ones, if I could mention).
Okay, I do not have to tell the exact story, but yea I am failed, again. Again.
Ugh.
Who doesn't like failures? Especially when the victory line is such a crystal clear in front of your eyes.
But then, yes I should face the reality that today I am not a lucky one.
Well, maybe next time.
But I should say, the hardest part of failure is to admit.
Admitting that you failed.
Admitting that you are not good enough.
But lesson learned rite? Everything happens for a reason.
And I just have to find my reason.
Till the next time.
